coming to terms…
I’m trying to accept the fact that I will never be 100% over this situation… As much I would like to forget and let go it will somehow always impact me and it will always hold a place in my heart…. But if I am completely honest with myself a small part of me doesn’t want to completely forget because that would mean it never meant anything or that it never mattered… And as much as it hurt and as hard as it was I don’t regret ever going through it because from it I learned so much!! about myself.. about what I want… what I am able to endure/overcome… and just a lot about life in general… So with that being said I’m no longer shooting for a 100% I’ll settle for a good 90 to 93%… right now I’m at 75-80% on any given day… at times I still find myself stuck in the past and a little upset that Im still affected after all this time but then I just remind myself how far I came and where I was this time last yr and I’m just thankful to no longer be there and grateful to be making progress…
